How is that you couldn't even wait a week to get with someone else? Not even a full week... and the day before what would have been our 11 month anniversary.
"Did you even care about how I would feel?"
"Honestly it didn't even cross my mind."
You've been together, what two days, and already "I love you!" "I love you more!" "No uh!" Just last week you were telling me how much you loved me... It makes me sick, literally, just thinking about any of it makes me sick to my stomach, every time I eat I either come close, or I throw up. Thanks so much.
I see how much I really meant to you, in the 11 months that we were together and all the lies you told me, I still can't delete the messages from my phone. They just sit in there mocking me. And I trusted you, like I've never trusted anyone. Never again my friend, never again.
Now I have to wonder, every time we were together, were you thinking of her? How much of it was a lie. How long were we just fooling ourselves? Why can't I hate you?All I can do is cry and feel the pain eat and tear away at my insides but I still can't hate you. I just want for you to be happy. I hope you're happy because I'm freaking miserable. I can't even listen to most of the songs on my ipod without thinking of you, of course I couldn't before because a lot of songs reminded me of you, but now it just makes me sad.
Everything hurts so much, I can't accurately put into words. I can barely breathe. Do you see what you're doing to me, I have no motivation anymore to do anything. Not even debate, my favorite thing in the world. You're destroying me, and I'm slowly falling apart. Soon there will be nothing left of me but pieces of my heart covered in my tears. I hope you're happy.
I'm just so sad...
And I still love you.
"Did you even care about how I would feel?"
"Honestly it didn't even cross my mind."
You've been together, what two days, and already "I love you!" "I love you more!" "No uh!" Just last week you were telling me how much you loved me... It makes me sick, literally, just thinking about any of it makes me sick to my stomach, every time I eat I either come close, or I throw up. Thanks so much.
I see how much I really meant to you, in the 11 months that we were together and all the lies you told me, I still can't delete the messages from my phone. They just sit in there mocking me. And I trusted you, like I've never trusted anyone. Never again my friend, never again.
Now I have to wonder, every time we were together, were you thinking of her? How much of it was a lie. How long were we just fooling ourselves? Why can't I hate you?All I can do is cry and feel the pain eat and tear away at my insides but I still can't hate you. I just want for you to be happy. I hope you're happy because I'm freaking miserable. I can't even listen to most of the songs on my ipod without thinking of you, of course I couldn't before because a lot of songs reminded me of you, but now it just makes me sad.
Everything hurts so much, I can't accurately put into words. I can barely breathe. Do you see what you're doing to me, I have no motivation anymore to do anything. Not even debate, my favorite thing in the world. You're destroying me, and I'm slowly falling apart. Soon there will be nothing left of me but pieces of my heart covered in my tears. I hope you're happy.
I'm just so sad...
And I still love you.
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