No one told me becoming a senior in high school would make me feel like a senior citizen. *sigh* Second day of Senior year and I still cringe at the word (Senior not year). I'm scared to death of graduating, I'm scared to death of leaving for college because I know that I'm not going to stay here for college; especially since I plan on coming back to be near family. And I'm scared that I'm not going to end up doing what I want with my life and I'm not going to know anything about taking care of myself. I've given this rant several times to step mom, often all in one breath, and each time the scenario of my future gets worse and worse. I am terrified.
Contrary to popular belief the first week of school is awful, schedule mix-ups etc. so in my mind the first day of school isn't really until the second week when most things are back to ordinary. Thinking of the future makes me feel sick to my stomach.
I'm not even really looking forward to the perks of being a senior yet, because it just means I'm one step closer to being on my own, one day closer to graduation. I love my school, I love my debate team, the theater group, my friends, the teachers, the yearbook/newspaper staff, and I really, really do not want to leave this all behind.
I know I won't be completely alone 'cause I'll have my parents and what not but still... sometimes I feel like I'll screw up. So I completely and utterly terrified.
Contrary to popular belief the first week of school is awful, schedule mix-ups etc. so in my mind the first day of school isn't really until the second week when most things are back to ordinary. Thinking of the future makes me feel sick to my stomach.
I'm not even really looking forward to the perks of being a senior yet, because it just means I'm one step closer to being on my own, one day closer to graduation. I love my school, I love my debate team, the theater group, my friends, the teachers, the yearbook/newspaper staff, and I really, really do not want to leave this all behind.
I know I won't be completely alone 'cause I'll have my parents and what not but still... sometimes I feel like I'll screw up. So I completely and utterly terrified.
